November 2011
1 post
growing up
there was a wanderer who went from town to town trying to find the hole in his heart. he had forgotten what that missing piece looked like so he was unable to describe the piece to the townsmen. yet he could not live with the hollow feeling in his heart. it ate away at everything else. and he knew every day that he needed to fill it.
homesickness. will it never be filled?
October 2010
2 posts
i have $4 in my savings account
i have a lot of dreams. a lot. i think a huge part of me is a ridiculous idealist. if you don’t believe me, look at my blog title… but the thing is, once reality hits me in the face, that idealism is crushed and instead of getting back up and squaring reality with idealism, i get discouraged. i need to learn to balance and understand that as hard as it is to get idealism to...
September 2010
2 posts
recommitment
compromise is such a dangerous thing. we’re scared of losing what we want, what our hearts desire. yup i’m scared of losing it. everything that i’ve worked for and dreamed for. it’s like you cling to it at the expense of everything else. so what if one day, god takes it all away? would our faith still be intact? i thought about that today.. and it really made me...
spiced peach pie
life is perfect without all the excess.. it’s good to have sunny saturday mornings without the time crunch, even without the coffee, sitting here with all the windows open and the breeze. to actually wake up every morning wanting to spend one-on-one time with god. and feeling refreshed after a prayer from the heart. it makes me thankful that the god of the universe listens to me and...
August 2010
2 posts
to argue wisely
anger is a scary thing. and once it bubbles up in a person, you begin to see how he/she really is. and man, people can change their masks in a heartbeat once anger controls them. words are like swords. and it’s something you can’t ever take back.. someone may say something that’s a complete assumption, a complete label, a this-is-who-you-are-i-know kind of statement. i realize...
right-o right-o
“But many intelligent people have a sort of bug: they think intelligence is an end in itself. They have an idea in mind, to be intelligent, which is really stupid…”
The Elegance of the Hedgehog [pg. 166-167]
In other news, along the lines of Inception, the average person has over 1,460 dreams a year! The even more amazing thing is that I remember one of these a year…...
July 2010
2 posts
growing pains
people act like they got others all figured out. i do it. others do it. it’s a way to compartmentalize life and people. and this constant need to organize and understand people is put in hyperdrive. lately, i’ve found myself face to face with people who put me in a box. and i find i am deeply offended by the ways in which they think they know who i am. when assumptions are made. ...
these things take time
there are times in life when you have to sit your heart down and have a talk with it. lately i’ve been needing to do that. life can get you down.. and there are moments where you physicially feel the aching emptiness so much so that it hurts. when at the end of the day, you lie in bed and say “what just happened?” and you wonder whether you’ll feel different after a...
June 2010
4 posts
useless information to impress your friends with
a) The human brain is only capable of maintaining 150 stable relationships.
b) When under stress, men find women who look dissimilar to them most attractive.
c) The majority of Americans think God intervenes in day-to-day life
d) 80 percent of men and 75 percent of women lose their virginity by age 19
e) The average guy will get teary-eyed six times a year.
f) ...
May 2010
4 posts
the things that melt my heart
genuineness. unselfishness. grace.
hard to find but with you Father…
April 2010
3 posts
digging a little deeper
things are not what they seem. first glance is just that. the first glance. but take a second look and you’ll find layers into a person. i’ve been learning patience these days. in a way it’s like taking a splinter out of your skin, you wince in pain but in for the end, it’s worth it.
thankfulness for many things this year - coworkers, job, family, friends, provisions...
longing.
streaming thoughts…
what we want so often is not what we get. what we desperately search for, we fill with other things. all this other crap. and we say “okay, this will do for now”. how easily we can deceive ourselves. how good we are at being blind. as if being content is the goal in life.
more and more i’m beginning to see the value in the broken. in the...
“A true love of God must begin with a delight in his holiness.”
– Jonathan Edwards.
AMEN
March 2010
4 posts
i'm a huge sucker for interior designing.
one day when i have a place of my own…
credit to designspongeonline.com.
heavier things.
the best john mayer album. hands down. instructions: shuffle and repeat.
lesson of the week? let’s see. you must find ways to deal with your anger/frustration or else it manifests itself in unhealthy ways.
heart, please don’t grow cold.
February 2010
4 posts
maturation.
it seems growing up in life is an interesting thing. life naturally becomes more complicated and more things demand your attention and your energy, things happen, you make mistakes, small failures here and there and you’re pushed to move on. isn’t that why we reminisce on our childhood days? our days of youth? there’s always a certain longing for the simple life i suppose....
the right fear.
there are a lot of times when i don’t know exactly what i want - paper or plastic? treadmill or elliptical? oatmeal or grits? but with my career, i do. it’s black and white. i’ve always wanted to be a doctor. and i have worked the past 10 or so years to try to get there. it’s a door i’ve been desperately hoping god will open soon. so as i sit here waiting for my...
nit picky
You can’t have a good conversation with someone who refuses to generalize.
January 2010
3 posts
whatthefreakislove?
An act of love that fails is of equal importance to an act of love that succeeds, for love is measured by its fullness and not by its reception. - Louis Hughes
my reward post-mcats.
growing book list….
1. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2. Both ways is the only way I want it - Maile Meloy
3. What the Dog Saw - Malcolm Gladwell
4. Strength in What remains - Tracy Kidder
5. The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
6. The Happiness Project - Gretchen Rubin
7. The Sun Also Rises - Ernest Hemingway
December 2009
3 posts
risk.
i think most people would like to imagine themselves as people who take risks and live life with passion and open arms, not missing any opportunities that come their way. carpe diem! as the saying goes. but when it comes down to the wire, are we willing to make that jump? to say “okay here goes!” i mean, especially if you’ve been taught all your life to weigh the costs and...
identity.
sometimes we must do everything wrong just to figure out what is right. i swear there are moments in my life where i find myself willingly doing it the hard way. the “fall on your face first and then go down the right path” way. the “this is too easy so it must be wrong” way. the good things in life are usually hard. don’t get me wrong. if they weren’t, it...
November 2009
2 posts
true that. trueee that.
The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.– Thomas Merton.
caring too much vs. caring too little.
“apathy is dangerous. complacency makes the heart cold.”
this i wrote somewhere in the au bon pain cafe before starting another day of work. while clinging to my coffee, oh coffee, you get me through me sometimes, barely, but you get me through. back to the point though, as i sat there, i remember thinking back to the night before where i cried again as i watched my mom fight with...
September 2009
1 post
The Elegance of the Hedgehog
“…humans live in a world where it’s words and not deeds that have power, where the ultimate skill is mastery of language…Humans live in a world where the weak are dominant. This is a terrible insult to our animal nature, a sort of perversion or a deep contradiction.” [pg. 57]
Thoughts while reading: I admire those who have quiet power. Power that is not...
July 2009
1 post
June 2009
1 post
