cynicism is dead

i have a lot of dreams.  a lot.  i think a huge part of me is a ridiculous idealist.  if you don’t believe me, look at my blog title… but the thing is, once reality hits me in the face, that idealism is crushed and instead of getting back up and squaring reality with idealism, i get discouraged.  i need to learn to balance and understand that as hard as it is to get idealism to translate into something tangible, it’s not impossible.  i think my interests are incredibly divided and i’ve been needing to focus these days. (i give myself pep talks sometimes: “you got this!”) and i understand that sometimes, it is the mundane boring things that get you ahead.  focus takes an incredible amount of discipline and i must learn to wait and work through the daily little things in order get to where i want to go.  you can’t save the world unless you go through the mundane…

surrender.  i’m going to save money for something worthwhile.. for somewhere worthwhile.  little by little..